Why Does She Have A Penis Like Me? 

Chapter 1 

Growing up the only black guy in a yt community was like living in a movie. I was always the star, always the center of attention. Everyone wanted to be my friend. All the yt boys were scared of me, so they always went above and beyond to make sure they didn’t cross me. It was graduation night and I still hadn’t decided on if I wanted to attend college or go straight into the work force. I was laying in my bed scrolling social media when I came across a video of an HBCU football game. I had never seen so many black people in one place. I could count on one hand how many blacks were here in my town. Me, Mom, dad, our neighbor and his daughter made up the five black people in town. I quickly ran to my parent’s room and showed them the video. They looked at me as if I was crazy or something. Like why are you showing us this. 

Melo: Y’all know about HBCU’s?

Mom: Yes son 

Dad: We hid that life from you

Melo: why? it looks like black heaven 

Mom: Son it looks like all fun and games

Dad: Yea looks are deceiving 

Melo: Dad what do you mean? 

Mom: son we’ll talk about this tomorrow 

Dad: yea go back to your room, we’re about to handle something.

I walked out of the room confused as hell. Thinking to myself. Why would they hide HBCU’s from me? This spiked my interest even more. I walked to my room and sat down at my computer. I went to the search bar and looked for the nearest HBCU. The closest school was three states away. I sat there looking through pictures on the schools website. The more I saw the more I wanted to be involved. I heard a loud thump come from my parents room. I stood up from the computer and walked towards my door when I heard another loud thump. I opened the door and tiptoed towards their room, so they wouldn’t hear me coming. I got to the door and placed my ear against it. 

Dad: mama take this dick

Dad: we have to make another child

Mom: yes daddy give it to me

Mom: the one we have now has been corrupted

Dad: Yes He has found those blacks

Mom: How did this happen?

Dad: I don’t know, but he’ll be gone soon

Mom: Yes he’ll leave us for them

Dad: It don’t matter, I’m about to give you another 

Mom: hopefully it’ll be twins

Standing at the door with my mouth wide open. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I ran back to my room, and slammed the door behind me. I ran over to the computer and flopped down in my chair. I began applying to the school without doing any further research. I honestly didn’t care at the time. All I knew is that I had to get away from them.

Knock Knock

Melo: Who is it

Mom: It’s me son, your mother

Melo: Yes Mom

Mom: Son come here 

I stood up and inched slowly towards her standing at my door in her night gown. I didn’t want to make eye contact so I walked with my head down. 

Mom: Son look up at me

Mom: We need to talk about something 

Mom: Your dad and I left that life behind us

Melo: why? 

Mom: you wouldn’t understand

She paused for a moment and looked over at my computer. 

Mom: Son what’s that on your computer? 

Melo: I applied to the HBCU

Out of no where she began to scream. I looked over at the computer and then back at my mom. She continued to scream and then without hesitation she reached out and slapped me across the face. I dropped to my knees with a confused look on my face. She struck me three more times with her fist, while I was on my knees. Before she could catch her breath and swing again, my dad had rushed in and grabbed her.

Mom: Look at what your son did

Dad: Son what have you done? 

Still screaming 

Mom: He’s to far gone 

Mom: Son you have disappointed us

Dad: Don’t worry hunny, let him go

Dad: You’ll have another soon

I was still on my knees in disbelief. I had just graduated high school earlier in the day, which is supposed to be one of the happiest days of my life but instead I felt like it was the graduation night from hell. I was speechless. They told me to pack up and that they were driving me to the school. Since I wanted to be with the blacks so bad. We drove twelve hours before reaching our destination. The entire trip was silent. They refused to turn on the radio. They didn’t even have a conversation with one another. I dozed off for a few hours to escape the silence. When I woke up all of my things were out of the car. I looked outside to see if they were outside but didn’t see anything. I noticed that we were in the empty parking garage of a hotel. When I looked towards the front of the car, my parents were both looking back at me.

Mom: Son

Melo: Yes Mom

Mom: I deposited some money into your account 

Dad: we’ll miss you son, but we can’t support this

Mom: you have to find your own way now

Mom: We left this life behind years ago 

Melo: what do you mean?

Dad: None of that matters now

Dad: We got you a room here at this hotel

Mom: You can stay here

Dad: yea until you hear from the school 

Dad: Here’s your key to the room

Dad: All of your things are already inside 

Dad: We have to go now 

Mom: Love you so much son 

Mom: I would say be safe but

Dad: There’s no safety around those blacks 

I opened the door to the car. My mom grabbed my arm. She didn’t say anything. She just looked at me. My dad turned his head in disgust and started the car. He reached back to pry my mom’s hands off of me. 

Dad: Let him go

Dad: this is what he wants 

Chapter 2: The Stairwell

I got out of the car and walked towards the hotel entrance. I turned around before going in and watched the car pull off. I was still confused by all of this. They acted as if they weren’t black themselves. How could they not want me around other black people? I had so many questions, but no answers. I took the stairs up to my room instead of taking the elevator. I figured by taking the stairs, I wouldn’t run into anyone. I wasn’t in the mood to converse with anyone. 

While walking up the stairs I heard someone clapping. I thought to myself (why would someone be clapping in the stairwell?) The clapping stopped for a second and I thought nothing else about it. I kept walking up towards my exit. Once I got to the fourth floor where my room was. I reached out to open the door to exit the stairs and that’s when I heard someone clapping again. It was louder this time. Out of curiosity, instead of going to my room I walked up the stairs towards the clapping. I didn’t want to disturb anyone so I tiptoed up the stairs as quiet as I possibly could. I still couldn’t believe my parents just dropped my ass off like this. That’s all I could think about while walking up the stairs. I got to the seventh floor and could tell that the clapping was coming from the eighth floor. I could see up to the eighth floor and what I saw changed my entire life. 

Random Girl: O shit someone’s watching 

Random Dude: wtf you doin bro

The girl tried to stand up, but the guy positioned her back on the floor and just kept doing what he was doing. The girl was bent over on all four and the guy was behind her with his hands wrapped around her waist. He was thrusting his hips so hard that he had her ass making the clapping sound that I thought were hands.

Random Guy: you can come join bro or gtf on

Random Girl: Yea come here

Random Girl: you’re handsome 

I was stuck, I couldn’t move or speak. I closed my eyes for a second. I couldn’t believe they were having sex in the stairwell. I was genuinely shocked. I honestly had never seen anyone having sex before. I always heard my parents, but was extremely grossed out knowing what they were doing. I was too scared to open my eyes again. I figured if I stood there long enough with my eyes closed, that they would eventually walk away. I began to visualize in my head what I had just seen. A tingling sensation came over my body and I began to get excited down there (If you know what I mean) if not then I can tell you that my penis began to swell. 

Random Dude: Bro open yo eyes 

Random Dude: Why Tf are you up here? 

I was speechless. I had no answers for him. I opened my eyes and I saw that the girl was standing up now. I looked over at the guy who was also standing at this time. Then back over to the girl. She was facing the wall so all I could see was the back of her. 

She had long black hair that flowed down to her booty. I had never seen a booty so big. It was bigger than what I was used to seeing back home, her thighs and legs were thicker than mine for sure. She couldn’t have been any taller than 5 ‘4 because the guy looked like a giant standing next to her. He had long locs that draped over his face, tattoos wrapped his body from his neck all the way down to his abs. His muscled body was dripping with sweat. He wiped his face and chest off with his shirt and began pulling up his pants. I took my eyes off of him and looked back over at the girl. She was facing me now. Our eyes locked. I quickly took a glance down and that’s when my mouth hit the floor. 

Random Girl: Yes baby I have a dick like you

Chapter 3: The Hotel Room 

I have been at the hotel for a week now. I haven’t heard from my parents since that night. They haven’t called to check on me or anything and I haven’t left the room since I got inside. I’ve been ordering room service and watching movies all week long.

I was still confused about the situation with my parents and I couldn’t quite wrap my head around what I had seen in the stairwell my first night here. I had so many questions like (how in the hell could she have a penis like me, but look so much like a girl?) I needed answers, but didn’t know where to start. I was walking to the bathroom to shower, when I heard a knock at my door. Thinking to myself who could this be? The cleaning lady had left a rag in the bathroom so I thought maybe it was her coming back for it. I continued into the bathroom and grabbed the rag. After retrieving the rag I walked over to the door. Without hesitation I reached out and opened it. 

standing there was the guy from the stairs my first night here. We locked eyes for a second, neither one of us saying a word. A few seconds had passed. He broke eye contact and pushed me back into my room, closing the door behind him.

Melo: What are you doing? 

Random Guy: Shut up bro

Melo: What do you mean shut up? 

Melo: you’re in my room

Random Guy: And I’ll fuck you up, if you scream

Melo: I’m not scared of you 

Random Guy: Good, this will be fun then

Melo: huh? 

Random Guy: nothing bro

Random Guy: sit down I just wanna talk 

Melo: About? 

Random Guy: The other night

Melo: O

I walked over to the chair at the desk in my room. He walked over to the bed and sat at the edge. 

Random Guy: Look bro

Random Guy: That night didn’t happen

Melo: huh? 

Random Guy: you didn’t see shit that night

Melo: I saw a girl with a penis like me 

He stood up from the bed, walked over to the window and closed the curtains. 

Melo: What are you doin? 

He didn’t answer. He walked over to the front door and locked it. Then looked back at me 

Random Guy: I said you didn’t see shit that night

Melo: I did though 

Random Guy: you making this harder than it has to be

Random Guy: like I said you didn’t see anything 

Melo: How can a girl have a penis like me tho? 

The room grew quiet. The guy stood there shaking his head. I didn’t know what to think. I didn’t say anything else. I waited to see if he would answer my question. A minute passed and he still hasn’t said anything. I was about to speak when he started reaching in his back pocket. I stood up from the chair and ran towards the bathroom. 

Random Guy: tf you doing bro? 

Random Guy: I’m just grabbing my weed

Melo: I thought you…

Before I could finish my sentence he cut me off

Random Guy: I’m not here to hurt you bro

Melo: Wait, how do you even know where my room is?

Random Guy: I followed you that night after you ran off

Melo: Followed me?

Random Guy: That’s what I said right? 

Random Guy: bro just sit down 

Random Guy: Acting all paranoid and shit

Melo: this whole situation is weird 

Random Guy: I know bro

Random Guy: that’s why I’m telling you 

Random Guy: you didn’t see anything that night 

He kept talking. I really wasn’t listening to what he was saying at this point. In my head I was planning on how the hell I was about to get up out of that room. I inched closer to the dresser where the iron was. I was thinking about hitting him over the head with it.

Random Guy: bro did you hear me

Melo: Yea (in my head not really tho) 

Random Guy: I said my name is Shawn

Random Guy: What’s your name? 

Melo: umm

Shawn: Well

Melo: Umm it’s 

Before I could finish my sentence a knock came from the door. Then another and then several more. I could hear a voice but I couldn’t understand what they were saying. Shawn apparently knew the voice and said 

Shawn: Fuuuuuccccckkkkk

Chapter 4: The Girl With The Penis 

Shawn: wtf she doing here 

Shawn: You set me up huh? 

Shawn: How do you know her? 

Melo: What are you talking about? 

Melo: Know who? 

Shawn stood up and started looking around the room frantically. 

Melo: Who is that? 

Melo: What’s going on? 

Shawn: I’m not in here if they ask

Shawn went and hid behind the curtains. The hotel room had windows 10ft tall with some long ass curtains hanging. It was the perfect spot to hideout. I’m standing in the middle of the room, confused as hell. A few more knocks came from the door. I walked over 

Melo: Who is it? 

Random Voice: Room Service 

Melo: No thanks I’m fine

Random Voice: I have towels for you 

Melo: I have enough 

Random Voice: Front desk told me to bring extra

Random Voice: we’re closed tomorrow 

Not thinking much into it. I said the hell with it. I opened the door and there stood the girl I saw the other night in the stairs. 

Random Girl: Heeeeey

Random Girl: As you can see I’m not room service 

Melo: Obviously 

Random Girl: aw hush, I like you already 

She pushed me aside and walked into my room, like she had been knowing me forever. 

Random Girl: Oh yeah I like your room

Random Girl: You fancy 

Random Girl: Anyways I came here to talk 

Melo: About?

Random Girl: The other night

Melo: Why do you have a penis like me if you are a girl?

I blurted it out so bluntly that it took her by surprise. She began laughing and shaking her head. I looked at her while she looked around the room

Random Girl: you funny

Random Girl: You never seen anyone like me before

Melo: Why do you have a penis like me if you are a girl?

Melo: and no I have never seen anything like this

Melo: I’ve never even seen anyone having sex

Melo: Until I saw you and sha

I was about to say Shawn when I quickly remembered that he was behind the curtains. 

Random Girl: Until you saw me and who? 

Melo: That guy you was with

Random Girl: Oh that’s Shawn 

Random Girl: He fine ain’t he

Melo: Huh? 

Random Girl: oh nothing 

Random Girl: come here let’s talk

Melo: Wait how do you even know where my room is

Random Girl: I followed Shawn

Random Girl: I knew that he would follow you to your room

Random Girl: He’s DL

Melo: DL?

Random Girl: Yes, DownLow

Melo: What’s that? 

Random Girl: He doesn’t want anyone to know 

Random Girl: that he likes guys 

Melo: But you’re a girl, with a penis like me 

Random Girl: I’m Trans baby

Melo: Trans? 

Random Girl: Yes 

Random Girl: Meaning I was born a guy

Random Girl: but slowly transitioning into a girl 

At this point I’m lost for words. I’ve learned a lot in so little time. Downlow? Trans? Sex in the stairwell. What’s going on? It got me thinking. Maybe this has something to do with why my parents didn’t want me here. I still want to know their reasoning, but for now I have to get myself out of this situation. 

Random Girl: Helloooooooooo

Random Girl: Did you hear me? 

Melo: Yes, pls don’t repeat yourself 

Random Girl: You funny boy 

Random Girl: What’s your name? 

Melo: I don’t know, but you have to go

Melo: my girlfriend is on her way over

Random Girl: oh this is going to be good

Melo: What do you mean? 

Random Girl: well my name is Shaquan 

Random Girl: but everyone calls me Q

I grabbed Q by the arm and escorted her towards the door. She didn’t resist. Once we got to the door, she gave me a hug and said

Q: We’re besties now 

I opened the door, pushed Q out and closed it as quickly as possible. Shawn walked from behind the curtains with his hands on his head. He looked like he had just seen a ghost. 

Chapter 5: The Hotel Room Continued

Melo: Why are you hiding from her? 

Shawn: She’s sprung 

Melo: Sprung? 

Shawn: Yea like in love with the Dick

Melo: isn’t that a good thing? 

Shawn: Not when she’s going around

Shawn: Telling my business 

Shawn: I should kill that hoe 

Melo: Wait what? 

Shawn: nothing bro 

Shawn: yo ass slow 

Melo: Nah, it’s just a lot going on 

Melo: I’m not trying to get involved in any of this 

Shawn: To late lil nigga you already involved yourself.

Shawn: When you decided to walk up them stairs 

Shawn: you got involved

Melo: Tell me something 

Melo: Why were you doing that to her in the stairwell?

Shawn: Heat of the moment 

Melo: So if you’re that bold why not live in your truth?

Shawn: What truth? 

Melo: She said you didn’t want anyone to know 

Melo: that you like people like her

Shawn: I don’t like her nigga

Shawn: It’s just sex

Melo: Well she likes you 

Shawn: so nigga, I’m straight and can’t be seen with that

Shawn: let’s watch a porno and smoke this blunt

Shawn: I’m tired of talking about that 

I didn’t respond. I walked over to the recliner, sat down and laid all the way back

Shawn: did you hear me nigga?

Shawn: let’s smoke and watch some porn

Melo: Do you bro

I laid back in the recliner and closed my eyes. At this point if Shawn wanted to kill me I just didn’t care. Put me out of my misery. My parents left me, I don’t know anyone here, and what I witnessed between Shawn & Q had me questioning if life was even real anymore. I dozed off to sleep or so I thought. When I opened my eyes I saw 4 looking back at me. It was my mother and Father. They were standing over me as I laid in the recliner. 

Mom: Son, are you ok?

Dad: Yea Son did you have a bad dream? 

Melo: What’s going on? (Confused)

Mom: Everyone has left for the evening 

Dad: Yeah son, did you enjoy your graduation party?

Dad. I know you got tired and came up to lay down for a bit

Mom: Yeah, but did you enjoy everything else

Melo: What are yall talking about? (Still Confused)

Dad: Who is Shawn? 

Dad: When we walked in, you were talking to him in your sleep

Mom: Yeah son who is Q 

Dad: And why does she have a Penis like you? 

Melo: 😳

I looked around my room and then back up at my parents. I realized that I had been dreaming this whole time. Dreaming about the HBCU conversation with my parents, The Silent Car Ride, The Hotel Stairwell, Shawn and Q. A sigh of relief left my body. I hugged my parents and thought to myself, maybe I can turn this dream into a book. 

To Be Continued…..